Bipolar disorder is incredibly difficult to deal with. It's not something I can just turn on and off because I feel like being a bitch and having an excuse.
Why would you wish you have a severe mental illness?
I would give ANYTHING to be "normal".
Sure. I've learned a lot from my bipolar disorder.
But if given the choice, I'd have it taken away from me in a heartbeat.
I want to be able to react normally to stressful situations.
It seems like lately, people have decided mental illnesses are "cool" to have. That they're fun to joke about.
No.
They suck.
And just because the world all of a sudden thinks it's "cool" or "rebellious" to have a mental illness, that doesn't mean any of us are more accepted for it.
A lot of the people I know who are bipolar are terrified of people finding out they're bipolar.
Society views me as violent, bitchy, and not worth their time.
And it sucks.
To me, wishing to have a mental illness is along the same lines as wishing you have diabetes or cancer.
It's not something to use as an excuse.
It's something I will struggle with every day for the rest of my life.
So no.
No, you don't wish you were bipolar.
Get an education and stop being a naive asshole.
Because someone should totally want to depend on multiple medications a day, simply to preform the simplest of tasks.
ReplyDeleteTo have the best day, yet in the same day, sink so low you contemplate suicide, self harm, or just break down. To hallucinate, to not be able to tell what's real, and what's just in your mind.
To be abused day after day by the things said in your mind, the things going on behind closed doors.
To become so depressed, even on medications, you can't leave your bed, can't get up, can't stop crying.
And then weeks later, be so manic out of your mind you'll do irrational things- drugs, unsafe sex, purposely pushing limits. Anything and everything your mind can present simply because you're not in control.
To break down, again and again, and be so scared and so unsure where it's going to leave you, if you're going to be able to get back up again or if you're going to wallow in that pit, desperately trying to claw your way back up.
To have such a stimga against you and the things you can't control that you can't go a day without someone trying to validate if it's true or not, without someone making a joke or saying something like this. THAT THEY WANT THIS.
This is not something to want.
Pills are not cool. Being so unsafe and unstable you need to be hospitalized is not cool.
It doesn't matter whether they were joking or not, would it be a joke if I said "I wish I had cancer so I can get on airlines for free"? Or if I said "I wish I had MS so I can get a disabled parking sticker and park closest to the store"?
No.
And the same applies to any other illness, mental or otherwise.
LIFE THREATENING AND DEBILITATING THINGS ARE NOT A JOKE.
(sorry for the rant I had to get it out ilyalexlyfbuddy4evr)